Learning to Cope

Wow! Do I have post performance blues today. There is nothing more disheartening than thinking you just about had it beat after the last audition, when it hits with the next.

Yes, friends, I just completed yet another audition last night. Another strange one where you feel like you took a breath, just got started, and never got to finish! This time, I literally wanted to look at the guy and say, "But you didn't hear what I could really do! You didn't hear my full voice, my coloratura, or my high notes." But I didn't. I just finished and walked off. I thought I was fine, but boy am I feeling it today. Really it is just the impatience of having thrown tons of options out there and none have come back yet. But man does it weigh on me. The reality is I must learn to cope with this emotion. I think perhaps I will always feel the emotion, but learning not to dwell and sink into it is going to be the key.

Again, this one was a good experience. I learned. I got out there. But boy it doesn't make it any easier to get up the next day having had no feedback. It is that mixed emotion of doing what you love and then having to see if anything pans out.

But truly, it went well. Once again, I got out there, auditioned, held up, and walked away knowing I had done my best. That is worth having.