And she grew up a little more

Well, it's been a few days. And how life has a way of changing in just a few moments. I am truly amazed at this journey called life! It truly is a journey. A good friend once told me that life is like a roller coaster---full of ups and downs. There are times of holding on tight, and times to let go and soar. There are times of thrill and times of fear. I have experienced all of this literally in the past month. Let's just say that life has a way of making you grow up---whether you want to or not.

The excitement of moving to a new job and house. The thrill of teaching and seeing improvement. The joy of seeing the light turn on in each students eyes. Time to rest, time to relax, time with friends.

The nervousness of singing again and facing my doubts of my own vocal ability. The fear of stepping out into the unknown. The pain of new adjustments.

Yes there is both joy and fear in change. The joy comes from starting fresh with what I was created to do and be. To invest in something worthwhile. To delight myself in using the gifts God has given me. Yet, the pain of life still takes its toll when it can.

This weekend I experienced some setbacks---only one of which I will relate. My house and studio got flooded with the nasty weather. Have you even seen your entire life and livelihood flash before your eyes in a single moment. I did! Really brought some things home. I have many decisions to make. I go in and out of being ok and being not ok. I guess you call that emotional! (I hate being female sometimes). I have many decisions to make. But yet, it is weird. Somehow, I know God will provide. He has promised to meet my needs. Not always my wants---although He has given me plenty of those---but always my needs. So I sit and wait for the needs to be met. Sometimes with worry and panic, but still waiting with quiet confidence that God will be my stay---as He has been in the past, and will continue to be so through the present, and on into the future.