A Disturbing Phone Call!

Most people live their lives trying to avoid situations in which they are embarrassed in front of other people. There are a few of us who actually manage to stay away from embarrassing situations about 90% of the time. We tend to keep to ourselves and our personal groups are small, thus limiting the quantity and quality of our embarrassment. There is the occasional stumble, the stupid comment, the bad hair day, something in your teeth, zit on your nose, etc. moments. But we do move past them all, especially when those in your small, personal group, after making fun of you, continue to accept you for who you are and aid in building your self-confidence and esteem.

However........and don't you love those "but" moments. Oh, yes, there is always more to the story. It just can't be avoided.

There are a few of us, who live in more fear of those small, but disastrous moments when you embarrass yourself...........in front of yourself. There ain't no one there but you, yourself, and you. You actually wish someone had been there. Self-esteem just comes crashing down. There is no one there to pick you up. No one there to tell you it's ok. There isn't even anyone there to laugh with. And I'm sure had someone been there, 1. you wouldn't have done "it" and 2. It wouldn't have been as embarrassing, somehow!

I had one of those moments today. A moment when having a cell phone was not so cool, at all! A moment when I should have just kept working. But oh no, I thought I would call my parents and check the Anderson weather. Afterall, Chicago was terrible! Snowy, cold, icy, etc. But I had this brilliant idea that I would make the call on my work phone, so that I could continue working while I checked up on my family very quickly. I pressed my "Handsfree" button and dialed my home phone number. No one answered, so I hung up. I pressed the "Handsfree" button again and thought I would call my mom's cell phone. So I dialed. It started ringing. Two rings into my call, my cell phone started ringing. "Ah, man,"I thought, "who is calling me now!" I hit the "rls" button to hang up my work phone, grabbed my cell phone, and checked the number. It was an Illinois call. I was so mad........who was calling me. I answered my phone, and as soon as I said, "hello," they hung up. HOW RUDE, was all I could think!!!!!!!

All of a sudden, I realized that I had actually dialed my own cell phone number instead of my mom's. I just hung my head. How stupid.....How moronic......I mean, what a geek! And I hung up on myself! What a dork! I had burst my own bubble. I mean, I called my own number and hung up on myself! I could not even encourage myself on this one. What a hit to the old self esteem! Even my mom laughed at me!

But this too, like everything else, shall pass.